I've often wondered what my life would have turned out like had I never been adopted. I do know that my birth mother Linda, named me Samantha, and everyone from that side of the family calls me that. My half brother named his daughter Samantha after me, before I ever even knew him. My birth father was Kenneth Savage, and was a member of a motorcycle gang with his brother. He died four months before I was born and never knew I existed. At the time of his death he also left four other children in California. It occurred to me one day that if he had lived and they had gotten married my name would then be Samantha Savage. I also have a fondness for Harley's. I find myself in a fantasy world of wonder of who this biker chick could have been. But then life just comes up and smacks you right back into reality. I'm just Tish. The short, fat chick that is always trying to loose weight. I have to believe for myself that it will become a reality for me. I have been overweight now longer than I have not. I just can't think this is all there will ever be for me. Someone once told me that no man would ever love me as long as I was overweight, and here I sit, alone. My question to that is....am I alone because the statement is true or because I believe the statement is true?
Tish, I think you should try acupuncture. It has great results for weight loss. I don't see you as "fat", I see you as having a few challenges. I also see your soul, and it goes far beyond human beauty. My life is better because I have met you, and I would not change that for the world. I want to help you learn to love the shell you were given, just as I must learn to love mine... none of us are perfect, but those unique traits that are only ours, are what make us more beautiful. Chin up, I will join your team and try to help you find some solutions.
ReplyDeleteOne thing that helped me lose a lot of weight after I gained from steroids is wheat grass... there is a place in midtown that sells shots of it, if you order a shot, ask for a side of apple juice, because trust me, it tastes just like grass and you are going to want something to offset that. Sometimes your body can give you warning signs that it needs something you are not giving it, not that you are over feeding it. There is a tasteless fiber supplement that you should look into, that will be key in helping you shed some weight... most of all, do not starve yourself, because then the body goes into survival mode and stores the fat to use for later. You can do this, I promise. I am here for you<3
Here's my 2 cents (and that may be about what it's worth):
ReplyDeleteI have no idea who Samantha Savage is, but I adore Tish! You are who you are inside... your outer shell has nothing to do with it (although my dear friend Tawnee has taught me that you should indeed know what it is about you that makes you beautiful). The things that I see about my friend Tish that make her beautiful (aside from a ROCKING sense of humor, intelligence that is sharp as a razor, and a soul that is as deep as the ocean) is a lovely woman with gorgeous skin, beautiful eyes, a luminous smile and a very infectious laugh. Really, someone said THAT couldn't be loved?! Perhaps that person should have taken a closer look in the mirror- something was clearly wrong with him/her.
I also know that when you learn to love yourself, others are drawn to you, and can't help to love you as well.
Food for thought...
Would you believe me if I told you that the person that told me that was my very own mother?
ReplyDeleteYou girls are the best, and I love you both dearly. Thanks for your kind words. It's funny you always wonder what other people think of you. I just always think the worst. But with friends like you how can I not think better.
Being single or overweight should not be what you use to define who you are. They are facets but not the whole diamond! There are thousands of facets. You just have to believe that and see them more than you do the first two I mentioned. There is the mom facet, the friend facet, the student, the caregiver...they go on and on. You are a bucket full of spunk and you need to let those facets or assets help you determine the path. Your weight...eh...you being single...eh....neither of those are you. You are TISH and that is who I luv and care about! That spunky, fun, loving person!
ReplyDeleteI like your blog!